i’m uncomfortable vlogging + other awkward things

hey! so, as you can see from the title, vlogging is something i want to do. i find it cool, and i can always see myself saying my blog posts before i type them. however, i’m incredibly awkward.

      i live with my family, and to stop embarrassment, i keep quiet. but that makes it worse. i never know what to do with my hands, so i always run them through my hair a billion plus times. i’m always trying to say something i actually mean, and then get embarrassed because i can never say it right.

      i wouldn’t be sharing them with anyone, but i’m just so awkward that i make myself uncomfortable and it clearly shows through on camera. drop some tips, please!

      in other news, i’m getting braces finally. i’m worried about pain and the fact that i have glasses as well. people at my school aren’t the kindest, and it’s just awful thinking about how i’d have to deflect things. it just sucks. 

      i really miss my friend, too. she lives a few hours away and it’s just hell because i went from living a street over to three hours away. idk. maybe i can get her down here soon. 

      i hope you are doing good and taking care of yourself. make sure to reply with some tips on vlogging or deflecting those who will hate on my glasses/braces situation. it’d be a real help. thank you and good night!


An Apology + Life Update

I feel like every blog post starts with “I know I haven’t been on in a while.” I’d like to apologize for that.

      In all honesty, I’m usually on Wattpad more, which 100% takes away from this. I’m almost never on. I have no motivation, really. I know it sucks, but I simply don’t.

      Suggest some personal life blogs, please! I want to look at some to show me why I was attracted to it in the first place.

      In other news, I’m starting ukulele lessons! I’ve had one for a while, but couldn’t play it. That left me crying over dodie covers and originals and wishing I could be as cool as Tessa Violet. I got some new fairy lights, and my school finally feels comfortable after moving. Like I can rest knowing I have someone to sit with at lunch the next day. It’s something so minor, but the thought is so comforting I don’t even know what to say.

      I saw “Beauty and the Beast” at last, and I totally cried. It was amazing! I loved “Evermore” and “Days in the Sun”. Does anyone know of a mashup? I need one so desperately. It was so good! I had forgotten how much I loved “Kill the Beast.” I don’t know why, but I just love that song! It does exactly what Gaston intended: get me riled up. 

      Speaking of Disney, that leads me to my choir, which is covering a bunch of Disney covers in class. It’s so much fun! I can’t wait to see who gets the solo for Eugene’s part in “I See the Light”. We’re going to a state competition a few hours away after winning district, and it’s something out of “Glee!” I’m so excited. 

      What’s going on with you guys? I’ve been the worst blog writer. Drop blog suggestions and little updates. I’d love to read them! Seriously, it brings me back to the blog world. Stay lovely!

February Favorites 💕

Hi, guys! I’ve been wanting to do a favorites post for a while, and now that February is over I can! I’m not going to waste a whole lot of time, so let’s get right into it.

  1. Grey’s Anatomy. I’ve really been into “Grey’s” lately, and it’s a perfect show to watch at night for me. A golden show for ice cream eating, that’s for sure.
  2. Spotify’s Acoustic Mashup playlist. I love this playlist so much. It matches my cozy aesthetic and is a good morning playlist and perfect for unwinding. Here’s a link: https://open.spotify.com/user/spotify/playlist/5uSVaNDK1MqYaE5rTi0RVn (I’m head over heels!)
  3. Dodie Clark. Her YouTube is the best place! Check her out at doddleoddle and doddlevloggle. Her Snapchat is the same as her main channel name. 
  4. La La Land. I finally saw it, and let me tell you I’m so in love it’s not even funny! I actually cried at the end. People are hating on it because of the thing at the Oscars with “Moonlight”, but you have to understand it wasn’t their fault. They didn’t take away from it’s win! It’s still an amazing movie with a soundtrack I’m always humming (especially the piano theme and “Someone in the Crowd”). 
  5. Riverdale. This new CW show has me obsessed! The plot is compelling, the characters are rounded and so shippable, and there’s always a surprise. It’s based off of the Archie comics, only this is a murder mystery filled with drama. Veronica Lodge destroyed everyone’s favorites and if you don’t aspire to be Kevin Keller you aren’t yet living. I love Betty and Jughead (played by Cole Sprouse, my love) is basically perfect. I hope Archie grows on me, though.
  6. Fairy lights. These are always my favorites!
  7. “Bridges” by Broods. I’m not usually into this type of music heavily, but I love this song so much! I know I’ve been saying that a lot, but it’s true. 
  8. Emma Watson. This woman is my role model, quite honestly. I’m so excited to see “Beauty and the Beast”!
  9. Miraculous Ladybug. Though it’s a children’s show, I really like it. Parisian superheroes, secret identities, and crushes! What else would you like?

Let me know some of your current favorites!

Things You Need to Know

1. Go to sleep when you’re supposed to. An early night’s rest means earlier waking up. You’d be surprised how breathtaking a sunrise is. You’d be surprised how mornings can be the best time of day. And the sleep helps your body function at school, at work, at home.
2. Have you eaten today? Have you had anything to drink? Go to the kitchen and get some water, eat some fruit. Maybe some milk? Work with your dietary needs. Food will calm you and give you the energy to keep going.

3. Dress up! I don’t mean wear a costume; wear nicer clothing than usual. It will make you feel like you need to do something special, like you need to get something done. So you will!

4. Treat yourself how you would a puppy. Feed yourself, give yourself something to drink. Take yourself outside and go to the bathroom. Tell yourself you’re amazing and let yourself accept affection. Move around!

5. Try a happy playlist on Spotify! Oftentimes, the happy beats and lyrics empower you.

6. No matter what you’re dealing with, the sun will shine again. There must be rain for a rainbow. This test isn’t trying to break you. It’s trying to push you to your limits and making your limits go out the door. It’s trying to show you that you can do anything. Only if you try.

7. You’re worth it. Don’t think you aren’t, not for a second. People who speak to you aren’t pitying you. They want you in their lives. Let them love you.

8. Everyone will notice. At least someone will miss you. I’d miss you.

9. If you can’t bring yourself to hurt a puppy or a kitten, why yourself? Your life is just as important as theirs.

10. “Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind always.”

11. The first shot of adrenaline (or however you’d like to refer to it) usually only lasts about a minute. Your body will get rid of it by using it up in those sixty seconds. Count backwards from sixty if you’re panicking. It helps to prevent panic attacks.

12. Try “square breathing”. 1- breathe in for four seconds. 2- stop breathing for four seconds. 3- breathe out for four seconds. 4- stop breathing for four seconds. It helps!

I hoped these tips and reminders. helped you. Come back to it when you need to. Comment your favorite tips, and I might make a part two. Would you like one?

Ideal Disney Movie Marathon!

In all honesty, I can’t think of anything more appealing than a Disney movie marathon- unless it was with friends and/or at a Disney Park! However, sometimes I get a little picky about which ones I watch. I like to pick ones I know I’ll enjoy. Here’s a list of my favorite ones to watch!

  1. The Princess and the Frog
  2. Up
  3. Ratatouille
  4. Tangled
  5. The Little Mermaid
  6. The Lion King
  7. Mulan
  8. Toy Story
  9. Cinderella


    These movies have great scores and musical numbers, and are so fun to watch! I love the funny lines in them, and the loveable characters.

    What are your favorite Disney movies? Are they classic? Or maybe your prefer a princess week? Let me know in the comments! 


Hi. It’s me. You? Us? The pronouns will probably shift in this. Yeah. For sure. Anyways, it’s almost my (our?) birthday. I’m still young and dumb and unnecessarily sarcastic and I probably sound very terrible when you’re reading this. I’m sorry. 

    The reason I’m writing this is I’VE GOT SOME QUESTIONS FOR YOU, GOSH DARN IT. 

    First off, do you play the ukulele? It’s such a random question to ask, but I’m contemplating playing it and I might get one but I hope I’m not terrible. Tell me I’m not terrible!

    Second, do you have a boyfriend? Honestly, everyone at my school is awful except a few people. There’s no escape from the terror.

    Are you going through something rough? Has someone close to us died? Have you died? I hope not… Well, if you are going through something terrible, we’ll get through it. Wow, the pronouns are terrible in this.

    Do I get better at blogging? How’s my Wattpad? Do you use either anymore? Probably not. (If I do, though, I’m kind of curious what all I’ve written. Have I hit 1k on anything?)

    Does my hair/skin/eyes get better? I can’t see to save my life. My hair is odd from coloring it. I honestly wish I’d left it the same and hadn’t died it at all. Does my skin stop being oily in some places and dry in others? Do I fix that?

    How tall are you? How much do you weigh? I hope I’m not too heavy. It’s unhealthy, if you are. PLEASE DIET. 

    Do you still live in the same place? Where do you live? Oh, I’m so curious. What do phones look like? Do you work at a fast-food chain? Please tell me it’s at least a coffee shop if it’s after school or whatever.

    Did you drop out? I don’t think I’ve got that in me. Have you gone to jail? What are you reading? What are you watching? Are the Marvel movies still good? Are they still making any? How’s Disney? 

    Where’s Dad living? How old would Olivia be when you’re reading this? I want to read it five years from now… so… oh, Jesus, she’s fifteen! Sixteen? Is she still angsty and kind of condescending? Is she arty? I hope she’s arty. How are her friends? Is she popular with her classmates? Is she a walking meme (sorry, it’s 2017 speak)? 

    How are your friends? Do you have any? Please tell me you keep in touch with Grace still. How’s she? Who are your friends? Did we move? 

    How’s Mom? Is she good? I hope so. 

    What music do you like? Does your boyfriend like it too? Did you adopt a dog together? That’d be adorable. Aw. Expensive, though. 

    Do I ever do YouTube? Am I good at it? Is it even still around? Do people use it? Have people moved on? IS THE INTERNET GONE?¿?!¡!

    How’s Grandmother? Papa? Granny? DeeDee? I hope they’re alive. DeeDee is probably living. Did something bad happen?

    Does my sense of style get better? Do I wear cute dresses? Am I emo? Goth? I hope not. Did Dodie Clark marry Jon Cozart or at least kiss him?

    This is becoming crazy so I’m going to stop. I hope you can reply to it. Bye!

How I Take Notes!

With the new semester coming soon (even though we’re on break), taking notes is going to have to come into play. My teacher often gives hand-outs, and I do scribble down things while she’s talking. However, that’s not their final form. 

    When I want to get something I can actually read and study, I make an outline. In case you’re not familiar with those, let me do an example.

(I’m very aware my handwriting is atrocious. I scrawled it out quickly. )

    Start off with a Roman numeral for the section’s title. If you’re working from a book, this is easy. Make sure to go in sequential order, if you’re working with history. This represents one of the most major things or a chapter/section title. 

    After that, put a capital letter. This is for one of the most important events/things to know. 

    Underneath that, put a number. That is a crucial detail about the thing.

    Finally, put a lowercase letter if needed to go into even further detail. 

    If you like, you can highlight to make it even easier to read. I love this simple technique because everything is clearly broken apart. It’s easy to write out and doesn’t take very long. 

    Comment down below how you take notes, and any tips for us needy people!